never let me go

Never let me go

"I saw a little girl, her eyes tightly closed, holding to her breast the world, one that she knew in her heart that could not remain, and she was holding it and pleading, never to let her go."

I never thought I was actually going to finish this book because reading the first ten chapters of it bored me but I stand corrected.  I first got the title from the list of 100 best books of Time Magazine and when I read its synopsis, the story was weird enough to get me find a copy from the bookstore. The story was not easy enough to understand at first since it was not really the type of book I would want to read. However, reading through the whole story made me think of a life that is so bound up to wait for something to happen, something bad that the person already knows that is going to happen to him/her but could not find a way to change fate. And that person is only waiting for that time to actually happen, as if that something was not so bad after all.

Reading this book made me think about my future - what if I'm not cut out to become an architect - what if I’m supposed to be someone else. And still I am pursuing what I think I should be - because I really want to - because I have to. I am happy with my course of course but there are times that I end up regretting this track I've chosen. I always dream of working for big firms in the future but I'm not doing anything so great to make me remarkable in the field. What I do regret is letting three and a half years of my life go to waste with not being spontaneous. Through the whole three years and a half of my college life, I have thought of changing myself but still caught up with the past so much that I could not let it go that easy. I want to and I think I should. I still have two and half years to try and change myself. That I am eager to see happening.